Baby on the Mind

I’m ready to make a family.  I have a few months until we officially start Trying to Conceive (TTC).  So, I’m technically in the thinking seriously stage.  Sometimes I feel such a sense of urgency to start TTC, and other times I am so grateful for the time to prepare.  Part of me says, “Hey- what’s the rush?”  But, the paranoid side of me says, “But, what if this takes a long time?  What if I have difficulty conceiving?”  What if, What if, What if… ugh! 

I have a few medical conditions that require medication.  Fantastic!  Which is the source of the paranoid side of me.  I cannot tell you how stressed I am about the effects of medication on my baby.  Some research is scary, but some say the risk is statistically insignificant.  I tried to go off, but I wasn’t successful.  I was able to drastically reduce the amount, so I feel happy about that.  I’ve been taking my prenatal vitamin and folic acid every day for the past six months.

I’m trying to focus on taking care of those things I have control over.  I read just about anything baby-related that I can get my hands on.  I’m convinced the librarians are looking for my bump.  I’ve been to my doctors.  I’ve picked a midwife and hospital.  I buy organic when possible.  I’ve reduced my chemical load.  I’ve lost a few pounds, and I walk every day.  I could go on and on.

I have a few months to go.  Some more time to prepare.  I hope everything turns out ok while making a family