Baby on the Mind

For the sake of my sanity, I have decided to think of this as my “TTC Year.”  

I wanted this miracle of life to happen instantly.  I wanted to be one of the lucky couples with a happy “accident.”  I hoped to avoid the stress of wondering if I could get pregnant.  It doesn’t work that way.  I need to take a breath and re-evaluate my plan.  If the common advice is to “not try so hard,” I definitely blew it last cycle.  I couldn’t have tried harder if I wanted to!  I want to take a step back and look at this in terms of 12 months instead of right now.  If I happen to get pregnant along the way- Great!    

I have decided to make myself some rules to help me focus on what’s important.

#1  I will no longer spend hours on the internet reading different chat threads.  I always end up stressed out because of something I read, which is silly, because they aren’t doctors.  I will stick to reading about fertility from books and reputable, medically-oriented websites.  No Chat Room Lurking! 

#2  I will continue to blog about my attempts at TTC.  It helps me gain perspective… and I just love seeing the tally go up each day.  I love the comments, too!  Thanks for reading!!!

#3  I will chart my BBT, and I will use the OPK.  It’ll be good information to have.  I’ll be able to really pick out trends with a year’s worth of charts.  The OPK is expensive ($35 for 20 sticks), but I feel the added comfort that I am doing everything possible to increase my chances of conceiving is worth the money.

#4  I will remind myself often that there is no reason why I would not be able to have children.  I will not worry about a fertility problem until my yearly visit to the gynecologist in February.  By then I will have 6 months of data collected.  I have to give nature time to take its course.  I can’t control everything.

#5  I will not overly worry about BD positioning, the few beers my DH drinks a week, or any other random fertility advice.  Since, on the flip side, these are not realistic forms of birth control.  If they were, I would have saved a bundle over the past 10 years. 

#6  I will be nice to myself when I get a BFN or my AF.  I will reward myself with something that I stayed away from like feta cheese or peanut butter.  I will paint my nails or get a massage. 

#7  I will have fun with my DH and enjoy the journey of TTC.