I couldn’t believe my eyes when I POAS this morning and saw my first BFP. I’m still shaking a little bit. I didn’t take my BBT or really use OPK this month. I just watched my CM. DH was also more relaxed than usual. We took a nice vacation with our dogs. I didn’t feel pregnant at all. My BB had stopped hurting. Last weekend I cried because I didn’t think I was pregnant, and I was so upset that DH didn’t want to do a SA. This weekend I kept feeling a pull in my lower abdomen when I stood up quickly. Which was odd. This morning I woke up and my BB hurt again. I’m about 12 dpo, so I POAS to encourage AF to start. A BFN is usually a good way to get the next cycle started. Instead I found two bright pink lines. I didn’t really expect that! I’m pregnant! I keep checking the stick, and there are still two lines!
DH is out of town, so I haven’t been able to tell him. SHHHH! I want to think of a great way to tell him, but I’m sure I’m just going to blurt it out when he calls to check in.
I’ve never been pregnant, but I’m just not feeling it today. I think I’ll be facing Cycle #6 soon. Ugh! I think that we timed BDing well- every other day I had EWCM. Now, I don’t know for sure when I ovulated since I wasn’t taking my BBT or using the OPK. So, I might not have timed BD as well as I thought. My BB were sore earlier this week, but they aren’t as sore now. I’m just cranky and feeling stressed. I’m trying not to pick a fight with DH. We were up late last night, and I overslept for my acupuncture appointment. DH was up, and he usually wakes me up on Saturday mornings to walk to the dogs together. Today he didn’t. I know it’s not his fault- I’m a big girl and I could have set my alarm if I was concerned about not waking up on time. But… In the end, I was able to reschedule for Tuesday. So, in the ends it’s no big deal, but I’ve been feeling irritated all day. I was irritated and tired yesterday, too. I was up late Thursday night too. I still have one more week before AF finds me. I’m going to try to remain as positive as possible. FX that this is my month even though I feel crappy!
My acupuncturist gave me a handout about the Chinese New Year later this month. This is the year of the Ox. The handout talked about different things to do to make the most out of the year, and they all boiled down to getting back to the basics. That’s exactly what I plan to do. I’m going “Back to Basics.” I’m going to try to make TTC as basic as possible. I have to admit that not charting my BBT has made it difficult to know for sure if I’ve ovulated yet. I wasn’t sure if that would matter to me since we are BDing every other day, but BD on a schedule is hard when you aren’t sure when you can stop! I broke down and used my last OPK yesterday- it was negative. So I’ve either ovulated, or I’m going to soon. Grrr… I’m fighting the urge to buy more. I’m glad that I will use the fertility monitor next month. I should change it to going “Back to Basics within Reason.” Just can’t give up total control to fate!
I find it interesting to read about the traits of people born in the year of the Ox. Dependable, leaders, smart, trustworthy, caring, organized, etc. They sound like typical first-born children to me, so I’m hoping that’s a sign that this will be my baby year.
I’m not sure why, but I noticed fertile CM earlier this cycle. Since I’m spending so much money on acupuncture, I’m going to attribute the change to the needles. It could be the phase of the moon, or that I’m slowly getting regulated after 5 years with an IUD. I may never know why for sure, but I think I’m going to ovulate earlier this month. I’m not taking my BBT or using the OPK. I was just using CM observations this month. I usually don’t notice fertile CM until CD12 or so, but this cycle I noticed it on CD9. The exciting part is that we had planned a vacation for some BD last week. I had thought I would ovulate then when we planned the trip, but as my cycles went on my ovulation date and LP changed, which threw off when I thought I would ovulate in January. Grrr… I didn’t anticipate ovulating until the week after our trip. But, I started to get fertile CM right before and throughout our trip. Hurray! Needless to say, I was excited. This wasn’t the high point of the trip for DH, but it certainly was for me. I’m hoping that this is our month- as I hope it is every month. I feel relaxed, and not charting so much has made me feel less stressed. We’ve been able to BD every morning since I notice fertile CM. I got my fertility spell completed, so I hope that will help the cause! I got my fertility monitor all set up and ready to go, so I have something to look forward to next cycle if it doesn’t work out for us. Now I just have to wait… FX and Baby Dust that this is our month!!!!
I decided that I am not going to do anything this month. No BBT. No OPK. I am going to chart my CM. It’s hard not to notice that when you use the bathroom. I’m just going to relax and enjoy January. DH’s schedule is great this month. We’ll be able to BD every other night for the next week or two, so I don’t need to know exactly when I ovulate this month. Hopefully, we’ll have our BFP, but if not, I got a Fertility Monitor. It’s an interesting little device. We’ll see how it works. I got it used off ebay for $60. It’s typically over $100, so I’m glad that I got a deal. I’m bidding on the test sticks you need to use with it. You have to start using it by CD 5, but I didn’t get it until after that because of Christmas. I’ll start using it next cycle, which will be something to look forward to if I get another BFN!
I’m hoping I will like the fertility monitor better than the OPK. I think it won’t make me feel as crazy! With the OPK, it was stressful to constantly get negatives. It was also hard to hold my urine and try to pee at the same time every day. You use FMU with the monitor. I’ve read that the monitor gives low, high, and peak results. My CM is pretty accurate, so it’ll be a good cross reference.
I had a leftover generic OPK from last cycle. I wanted to use it first, and then bust out the fancy brand name OPK. I started testing on Friday, and I decided to use FMU because a few ladies on FF posted that their RE recommended it for OPK. I usually test at 4 pm after peeing and limiting liquids after 2 pm. I was assuming it would be negative because I always thought you weren’t suppose to use FMU. Wouldn’t you know that I got a positive result. I thought it would be positive at 4 pm because I felt some cramping. I was excited because I felt it on the left side, and I haven’t felt anything on that side since my IUD was removed. It was negative at 4 pm that day, and I haven’t had a positive since. Hmm… I had fertile CM on Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Monday. I only started testing on Friday, but my temp hasn’t dropped- just gone up. It’s not as high as it usually is after I ovulate. So maybe I ovulated, or maybe I’m about to ovulate… I feel some cramping now. I wish things were more clear-cut.
It wouldn’t normally matter, but we were only able to BD on Saturday because of DH’s schedule. If the positive OPK on Friday was accurate, then we at least had one BD attempt during ovulation. If not, then we missed our opportunity this month. Grrr…. DH is super busy this week and wanted to not actively TTC this month. As if that is possible now! It’s like we opened Pandora’s box. There is no going back! I understand his side, but I was totally crushed. This is Cycle 4, and I feel we are going to be at Cycle 6 before I know it. Ugh! But, I tried my best to limit baby talk. I only slipped up around Thanksgiving because of my Dr. appointment. Oops… I don’t think I’ve mentioned it to him in almost two weeks, but I’m pretty sure he was aware of why I was seducing him on Saturday.
I’ve also decided to not have further testing done until my yearly gyno visit in February. I’m going to not temp or do OPK in January. I can tell when I’m fertile by my CM. I’m hoping that will make me feel more relaxed. I’m going to go to a different practice and see how they approach my concerns. I don’t feel comfortable with how my current practice handled my concerns.
But, I’m still wondering if that positive OPK on Friday was accurate…
I got this new yoga DVD, and I have to admit that I am very happy with my purchase- Bend, Breathe, and Conceive. It’s always a risk when getting an exercise DVD. Some are great, and some are just terrible. I wasn’t sure if I should buy it, but I decided to splurge when AF arrived. I’ve done the routine twice, and I really like it. It has a few of the typical yoga poses and a relaxation segment at the end. I definitely feel relaxed afterwards. I’m hoping this will help me be more relaxed about TTC. I get headaches from time to time, and I always forget how yoga helps ease the pain. It’s been more effective than OTC medication!
We aren’t really TTC this month because of DH’s schedule. I hate having a month go by without trying, but it might be good for me to get centered again. Today is CD12, and I was excited today because I had EWCM. I don’t usually see it so early, so I’m wondering if I will ovulate earlier this month… I’ll start taking my BBT tomorrow. It’ll be interesting to see what this cycle is like.
I can hardly believe that I am at 12 dpo with no AF in sight! Two BFN are not allowing me to think I’m pregnant. I’m thinking that I ovulated later than FF is showing. I could have ovulated two days later, so I’m going to assume that AF will find me tonight or tomorrow…
I can’t help but think it would be amusing to be pregnant after the nurse told me I didn’t ovulate. I’m a little ticked at this nurse at the moment. When I first called to question my short LP, I asked her if this could be because of the IUD. She said no since I’ve had 4 cycles since it was removed. Ok. I asked her the same question yesterday, and she said yes. What? I’m irritated that she left my results and possible treatment options on an answering machine message and then I couldn’t get in touch with anyone to talk about it. The nurse’s message said talk to the midwife, the midwife’s message said talk to a doctor, and the next appointment isn’t until next week! She kept using the word “infertility” which really bothered me. I’ve only been TTC for 3 cycles- couldn’t we use a different word?
In summary, I’m waiting for AF. I’m trying not to think I’m pregnant because I’ll feel really stupid when AF does show. I think I ovulated later, so that would explain why my progesterone was so low. I’m switching OB’s.
I was secretly hoping this was my month. I still don’t have AF, but my progesterone results are a terrible 5.9. The nurse left this information on my answering machine. She said she didn’t even think that I ovulated. I cried. What a terrible message to get. I’ve been trying to get someone on the phone all day long to answer all my questions with no success. My midwife left a message to make an appointment with a doctor at the practice. So I set that up for next week. At least it’s only next week! I should have AF by then…
I don’t know about this not ovulating business. I know my progesterone is low because I’ve been getting AF early (8-10dpo), but I’m pretty sure I ovulate. I have fertile CM, positive OPK, a sustain temperature shift, sore BB, and mild cramping. I guess all this can happen without ovulating, but then I seriously doubt the benefits of taking your temperature each morning. The nurse said something on the answering machine about doing an ultrasound of my ovaries to see if I’m ovulating. I guess that will give us an answer. I’m hoping my appointment next week is informative and my doctor is supportive.
I know low progesterone is fixable, but I still feel so sad about the whole thing. I was worried there might be a problem, and now there’s a problem. I hope this isn’t a case of self-fulfilling prophecy.
I just want AF to get here so I can stop hoping for a BFP and move on to the next cycle.
I can’t believe it’s CD 20 already. Where did the past 20 days go? TTC has this weird time warp effect. Some days I feel like life is going by so slow, and then there are times when I can’t believe how fast time goes by. I can’t believe it’s November already. Before I know it, it’ll be time for the holidays.
I ovulated on CD 19 for the past two cycles, so I was convinced that would be the case this month. I was so bummed when my OPK was negative. But, today it was positive. So, on Monday I’ll call the doctor to have my hormones checked at 7 dpo.
I like the idea of the OPK. How great to be able to predict something while TTC. It seems like so much is up in the air and left to fate. But, they actually cause a lot of stress for me. I think it’s the psychological effect of POAS and getting a negative result. It’s like getting a BFN each time. I’m not sure if I will keep using them since they cause so much stress for me. I already have a general idea when I ovulate because of CM and past cycles. We BD every other day during that time. So, in the event that I get a BFN this month, I think my plan of attack is to use CM and BBT to figure out my fertile time.
