something to happen!  I’m at 9 dpo.  I was so happy to make it through the weekend without AF.  I’ve made it past 8 dpo, which is how far I got last cycle.  Tomorrow is 10 dpo, and that’s how long my LP was for my first cycle.  That’s the low end of the normal range for the LP (10-16 dpo).  I’m trying to keep busy so that I don’t get to obsessed with what is going to happen.  I have so many questions and no answers at the moment- Will I have a normal LP?  Will I get my BFP!?!  Will my progesterone results be normal?  Will I need supplements?  Will I M/C?  I’m waiting- ho hum.  

I had my blood drawn on Friday (6dpo) to test my progesterone.  They said I’d have my results today- no such luck!  I called this morning, and they weren’t back yet.  I called at 3:50 pm, and they were closed already!  Luck was not on my side today- more waiting!  Hopefully, I will get the results tomorrow.  I am interested in my levels.  I did so well not worrying about it over the weekend.  I hope they are normal…

I feel AF is on her way.  I keep checking…  and… waiting.

I had a great conversation with the fertility nurse at the practice I go to.  I was completely prepared for her to blow me off since I’ve only been TTC for two months.  I feel so much better now that I have a plan.  She wants me to use the OPK and call when I get a positive.  Then we’ll test my progesterone at 7 dpo.  She confirmed my suspicion that this was why my period was coming early and getting lighter.  She also wants me to fax over my charts.  To be honest, I am really excited to share my charts.  I’m very proud of them!  FF makes them look so great!  I’m hoping that all this will help solve my early AF visits.  So, DH and I aren’t going to try too hard to get a BFP this month.  I feel a little more relaxed now.  I also saw that I will probably be ovulating when I took vacation time in December/January for the holidays!  Maybe that’s a sign that the new year will bring a BFP for me!!!!

I’m only 4 dpo, and I already feel pregnancy symptoms.  Ha!  I know they are imaginary.  It’s really funny how the mind can trick the body into feeling things- especially when you read and re-read early pregnancy symptoms every chance you get.  I have never paid so much attention to the inner workings of my body.  My lower belly aches a bit… is that the egg moving into position for implantation?  I feel tired… is it normal tired, or pregnancy tired?  Am I going to the bathroom more than usual?  Did that smell bother me?  Am I feeling lightheaded?  My bbs ached a bit right before ovulation and after, but not so much now.  That’s unusual- is that a pregnancy change?  

I think I’m going to drive myself crazy as I wait for 15 dpo so I can POAS and get the results.  I’ve decided to remain positive about getting pregnant.  I know that it doesn’t happen right away, but I figure the TWW will be much more pleasant if I am positive about the experience.  I’ll deal with the BFN when the time comes, but for right now, I am enjoying the fantasy that I am pregnant and all imaginary symptoms that go with it.