Filed under: Baby, Trying to Conceive | Tags: AF, BBT, Motherhood, OPK, POAS, Pregnant, TTC
It was amazing to have my LO with us for the holidays this year. I can’t believe all the changes that have happened this year. My last AF was Dec. 21 of 2008! I remember being so sad that I wasn’t pregnant for Christmas. I decided to stop charting my BBT or using OPK. I remember the moment I knew something was different. I was at work, and when I stood up from my desk, I felt a strange pulling sensation in my uterus area. I never felt that before, and I couldn’t wait to POAS that next morning to find out if I was right.
While I can’t deny that I felt uncomfortable during my pregnancy, I miss being pregnant now. It’s strange to look at pictures of myself with my large belly sticking out! It seems so strange. I greatly enjoy not feeling sick to my stomach all the time. I love that I can reach things so much easier. It’s great to walk at a normal pace again without huffing and puffing. I do not miss the yucky taste that was in my mouth the entire time. But… I still miss being pregnant.
We plan on waiting a year to TTC again- especially since I had a c-section. I’d like to get my body back together before I have another LO. I’ve lost 35 lbs.! Hurray! But, I still have 25 lbs. to go… ugh! We are planning on only having 2 LOs. I wonder if the next pregnancy will be different… or the same. I wonder if I’ll feel different knowing it’s our last one?
For now, I just want to enjoy this LO. It’s incredible just to sit and look at her. I still can’t believe she’s here!
Filed under: Baby, Baby Worries, Breastfeeding, Parenting, Postpartum | Tags: Motherhood
Yesterday was my first day back at work. It went pretty well. I cried a bit on the way there and the way back. The daycare providers were trying to be nice by asking how I was, but I didn’t want to talk about it. I didn’t want to completely fall apart! My LO did great. She seemed content when I went to see her at lunch time and at the end of the day. Work was fine- just paperwork to get myself settled. It’s a lot of little details now- pumping, getting daycare bag ready, lunch, blankets for the car, etc. Pumping at work was ok. A little time consuming. I didn’t produce as much milk as I anticipated, but she only needed two bottles since I was coming for lunch. I have my own office and relatively private access to a fridge and sink. It’s tricky trying to get 3 pumping sessions in- I almost forgot the first one! It was strange to be back at work- everything looked the same, but it felt different now. Today we relaxed, and we get to do it all again tomorrow. I’m excited to have Friday off for New Year’s Day. It’s nice to ease into it slowly. I’m glad to be only working 3 days a week.
Today she’s 12 weeks old. The 4th trimester is over, and she’s no longer a newborn. She’s doing great! She laughing and smiling. She “talking” up a storm. She’s starting to sit in a Bumbo for a few minutes, and she even rolled over a few times. She seems to be meeting all the developmental milestones so far which makes me feel so much better.
Happy New Year!
My LO is 8 weeks old. She had her appointment with the pediatrician to get her shots. She was a trooper! Just some tears at first, but then she was fine. I think it was harder for me! I still can’t believe she’s here, and I really can’t believe it’s been two months. She’s growing and starting to smile. We’re getting better at breastfeeding. For some reason, I can’t get a good latch on the right breast… I just keep trying. I’ve even breastfed in public a few times. It’s so weird to be less modest! She’s sleeping 4-5 hours at night, which is so nice. My maternity leave is almost over. I start back part-time the week after Christmas. I don’t want to go! I know the daycare I picked is good, but I just feel guilty leaving her with strangers…
I have someone else’s body right now. I look in the mirror, and I am startled at the “mom” body I have. I lost 35 lbs. right away, but now it’s not coming off as fast. I’m trying to exercise, but it’s hard to work that into the day for some reason. I also have this horrible sweet tooth that makes losing weight a little difficult!!! I bought some new clothes for work since I didn’t have any winter maternity clothes and I don’t fit into my old clothes. I couldn’t believe the size of my jeans, but I had to remind myself that it’s temporary. I AM going to lose this extra weight!!!!
My carpal tunnel is almost gone. I just have some loss of sensation in one hand. I can get my watch and wedding ring on again. My scar is healing, and I have almost no pain the belly area anymore. I can actually do a sit-up now! So, I’m making progress. I am so happy to not be pregnant anymore, but I also miss it at the same time. So odd!
Filed under: Baby, Breastfeeding, C-Section, Postpartum, Third Trimester | Tags: Motherhood
My LO is 4 weeks old! I know it’s a cliche, but time has gone by so fast! We’re figuring out how to breastfeed together. The first two weeks were terrible. Cracked and bleeding breasts- OW! But, now it’s going pretty good, and we seem to be getting better each week. I’ve pumped a few times, so DH was able to feed her for the first time last night. He had a blast! It was really cute. She has some baby acne and dry skin, but otherwise, she seems to be healthy and happy. She eating, sleeping, pooping, and gaining weight. I couldn’t be happier.
I’m adjusting slowly to not being pregnant. Recovering from a C-section was thankfully uneventful. I’ve got huge breasts (40F!!!) and a big jelly belly, so I feel a little self conscious. I’m having a hard time finding clothes that make me feel good about myself, so I might have to venture out to find a few outfits. I’ve been walking, and yesterday I did my pilates routine for the first time in months. I am out of shape, but I didn’t hurt myself. I’ll just keep it up, and hopefully it won’t take too long for my strength to come back!
